TRUST

people can go on for a long ass time without talking to certain indivuals if it makes another person happy.what if that someone talks to someone else and pretty much lets them disreaspect that indiviual? also disrespect the one thats not taking to people just to see them happy? what if it was a bf and gf situation?what would you do if you see the flirting between the someone and a random friend? (that you dont know about) how would the other feel? would rage erupt from the broken heart? or will that person just deal with the pain to show the love for the other? how would i feel? ... like shit. it would be hard to trust someone ever again in these situations 'cause that person wonder why they get no privacy. it sucks dont it? we all go through it and as these tears run down my face faster then a heartbeat i would keep the pain to have that person there. flirting can be both intentional and unintentional depending on how you see it. but problems like this are perks of being in a relationship. up's and down's constantly but the true love is shown on when if you can cope with it and to see if you can actually make a difference out of it for the better. so how would you feel? would there be hope? is there hope for if i was in the situation? well of course 'cause its about trusting yourself as well. i would trust myself to fix it amd the other to fix what they did wrong so it will never happen again, my opinion about trust may be different from others but you gotta look at it in certain situations. it may not be the smartest but when it comes to love im probably thinking from my heart, maybe my brain. it can be a good or a bad decision depending on how you live with it and put it in the past, cause the only concern people should have is their future and where they want to end up.

where im going?

smh i hold a lot of emotions in me. i dont know how to exactly use them in a correct form. i really wish i knew. lately all i get is arguments from left to right and from almost everybody. sometimes i feel like a fuck because no matter how hard i try, something always goes wrong. it hurts to see the only few that should care, not care at all. it seems like im living a shitty life and i only got 1 person to make it better. to be honest its actually good enough for me but i literally have no influences or anybody to look up to, especially when it comes to having a male role model. most of the time theres always random bullshit in my household, sometimes i just be like fuck it whats the point? but this 1 person makes such a difference in my life without doing a damn thing. its like shes my guardian angel. saved from a bad life, but where is this current path leading to?